Not Forever, Just In-The-Meantime Aloneness.

 

It's February. I could hardly grasp the fact that it's 2012 and now it's already the second month of it. If time was a person I'll have to tie it down, surround it with the meanest and toughest bodyguards in the world, and have it locked in a prison far under ground.

January has treated me fairly well but it wasn't all sunny. At times I've caught myself thinking why I wasn't put into a normal school where normal people with normal lives educate themselves. When I'm out with people who've grown up in the "normalcy", I find myself struggling to understand the subjects of their speech- relationships being an example.

Sometimes, if not most of the time, conversations tend to sway into the relationship topics, whether it be with acquaintances or friends. Running though stories of their past relationships and their current ones, exchanging advices and expectations for the "next one", you know, it's just what people do. But I'm always feel left out because I have no such stories to tell. Sure, there were boys, but they've flickered off into awkwardness and random hellos and how-are-yous. I'd like to tell you I'm waiting for the right one, and not because I'm making a petty reason for my forever in-the-mean-time aloneness, but yeah, I am. I've come this far already, why not longer for the best one. If a relationship is going to hurt me, might as well be hurt for someone that matters.

You may call me old fashion, a girl with her head in the clouds, or just plain lonely and pathetic, but I can frankly say that I'm not bothered. Right now, the lovely individuals that I am blessed to have the pleasure to call friends and family is enough for me. (Btw, I love you guys though showing it is not one of my expertise.)

Besides, I don't think I'm ready for ze boyfie yet. I need to learn how to make great sandwiches to impress before I meet him. Hahah!

I hope for you the best in your current or future relationships.

With Much Love, AngelKein.