About.

  

 I've not had the time to complete my "about me" section for a long time. So I've restarted and tada, here it is! :D If you know me well, you can (please) add to it. Ehe. ;D Also, notice that I've made various changes in my blog (the header and ads). Oh! I think many people don't notice that I've got blog gadgets at the bottom of my blog. So, scroll alllll the way down! :)

Hello you! My name is Angelina Kein. I was born on 28th April, xxxx on a little dot on the map we call, Malaysia.

 So if you're wondering whether Angelina Kein is my real name? Well yes, it is. Unique right? Honestly I don't know where my sir name originated from. I've always made up silly stories about it with my friends like maybe, I'm a German!

 Despite of my very rare sur name for a Chinese, I'm a pure Chinese. A handful of people have asked me whether I'm mixed well no - at least that's what I know of. I might be mixed? I haven't had the time nor source to dig deep into my roots.

 I think everyone has an alter ego (yes,like Beyonce). I am rather shy with new people even though my friends strongly disagree but when I get into my "alter ego", suddenly, saying hi to random strangers in a party doesn't seem so scary after all.

I am someone who's more to the artsy side. I enjoy taking pictures and editing them into something that might seem normal at first but turn out to be something more than it. That's why I would like to pursue something in art! Or maybe..a part time in art.

 I live like any other normal teenager - school, homework, acne, hormones, friends, all those. I am home-schooled but I don't study at home. I go to a place with other home-schooled and we use the American syllables. So that means we don't have SPM but SATs instead. And we don't study only Malaysia's history but the world's history and boy do I love history! If you're confused with what kind of school I'm in, well go Google it! :)

 I am afraid of doing the same thing repeatedly. For example, I would never want to work in an office, face the computer every single day. I need adventure! Doing something new. To me, life is about taking a risk and adventures. Without them, I think life is wasted. I literally will go mad if I was forced to stay at home for months! I need to hang out with my friends!

Oh yeah! I attend church at Metro Tabernacle and I love all the friends I've made in church and I love all the things I've learnt in church. :)

Blog. 

I started blogging four years ago which is the year 2007. I started my blog because this huge crush that I had on this guy and I needed a way to tell indirectly him how angry I am for things. I use to be one of those people who thought blogging was for lifeless people until I discovered I could make money from it. For sometime, it was all for the money (but I wasn't earning much). Then I began to make friends (whom I am still friends).

 Through blogging, I've gotten the chance to meet new people, attend events, and earn some money on the side. I can truly say that blogging has changed my life and opened my eyes to many things I wouldn't get to see if, without it.

 Now I'm waiting for new things to learn, new friends to make from blogging! :)

 Adios amigos! Love, AngelKein. 

Troubled.

 What a dull day. When people say life is 'ups and downs' and as cliche as it sounds, it's true. I've been very excited about work these few days. I come back home I don't just rush into my room and procrastinate. I actually did work. Shocking! I've been doing my homework enthusiastically and planning what to do next everyday. But today, not so much.

 I'm not the best student in the world. I don't obey every word my teacher(s) say. I'm not like my friends who has the ability to just accept teacher's words and speak nothing of it later. Sometimes I admire and wonder how they do that because I, for sure, can not do that. I speak up or, what people call it today, "talk back" to teachers whenever I feel there's a need to say something. I'm sorry but I'm not an obedient child. This, to my parents too.

 I'm sorry I yell at my authorities.
 I'm sorry I'm not every adult's dream child.

 You see, I've always been compared to my cousin who was "polite,respectful,and obedient". My parents often told me "Would you look at xxxx, why can't you learn to be like that?" And I often wanted to holler back "Why can't you be like xxxx's parents?" and 'Well I'm not him! I'm me!" . I get so irritated and outraged when I get compared with my cousin. Well I don't think anyone like being compared by their parents to any of their relatives. Do you?


 Now that my cousin is a teenager, he began to "talk back." Just the other day, my dad had came to fetch us from school and well, my cousin and I were late down. So my dad began to shout and oh, my cousin shouted something back too. And the whole ride home was full of their argument. I wanted to say something too but no, I kept quiet. I began to think "Well would you look at that?". I know, I'm evil. But hey? I didn't talk back right? I was being obedient. And okay, maybe part of the reason was that I'm immune to people shouting seeing that I hear them everyday.


 Oh what a troubled child I am and I'm sorry.



 But just like my parents and teachers and any adult figure, I, too have my dream of what my perfect parent or teachers would be like.

 I dream of parents who encourages you and tell you to try again and learn from mistakes instead of blasting why-can't-you-do-something-as-simple-as-that scoldings into your ears. I dream of parents who says sorry too when they make a mistake. I dream of parents who keep their promises. I dream of parents who doesn't put you down with so called "jokes" about you not being able to do something. I dream of parents who backs up their child when their aunties and uncles are saying something bad about their child instead of agreeing.

What they want from us, is what we also want from them, no? Correct me on this if you must. Seriously, do correct me if you must.

My principal told me to change myself first and show them how good I can be and they'll change too but can you really train an old dog new tricks?

 I've tried to change, I have, and my parents too, have tried (I think). Well it takes two to tango.
 I really have tried to be a joy to them. Perhaps, I should try harder? :X

 Sigh, AngelKein.

Gelatomio

 Last weak, me and Amanda were walking around Pavillion aimlessly and she suddenly suggested that we tried Gelatomio's fried ice-cream! Well 'fried ice-cream' is the term Amanda used but what it's really called is On The Rock.  At first I hesitated cause I was thinking oh boy,another over priced ice-cream shop? But I'm sure glad I tried it! :D Like seriously, it's some awesome stuffs.

Really. I will not waste my time writing this post if it's no good.
Okay okay you get the point, it's good.



Yes, they actually fry it. Lol. It's like magic that the ice-cream doesn't melt. :O Lol
And oh yeah, it's very filling. *burp

The price for it is quite worth it I guess cause Gelatomio carries over 50 flavors of ice-cream and it's made from 100% natural ingredients. No preservatives, no artificial flavorings, no colorings, no gelatin, no animal fat related emulsifiers(eww). And girls if you're on a diet and you don't wanna gain the calories, well fear not! The milk based ice-cream average 95% fat-free while the water based ice-cream is 99% fat free! Omg right!




Tada! Our "On The Rock". 





I must say it was a well used RM18.

Okay. Actually, Amanda treated me (Thanks Manda!). :P
But I think she'll say the same right! :D

There are many Gelatomio branches in around Malaysia. You may check it out here. 
But Gelatomio's On The Rock is only available in Pavillion. :( :D
So next time when you feel like having ice-cream, go Gelatomio okay?

Love, AngelKein.
Omg now I'm hungry. T_T

Zoe & Xiang's Birthday Party.

 This is a very delayed post.
 Last month, Zoe & Xiang had a birthday party held in Zoe's house. A big number of people was there, mostly bloggers. Around 35 people? Yea, roughly there. We were informed to bring ice-cream cause it was suppose to be a milkshake party but only a few brought. I'm part of the few okay! Lol. So yea, only the people who arrived early got a taste of the milkshake.

I don't have much pictures. And I know, I've got photostated face.



The birthday people! To be honest, it was my first time meeting Zoe and my first time talking to her. She's a really cute and funny girl, with an accent! Haha. And Xiang, I've known him for I-dont-know-how-long. :)




Woot! Here are just some of the people there. Okaay, who are they?
Starting from the top, left to right, left to right, left to right.
Samantha, Aaron, Jamie, Joseph, WenPink, Akiraceo, Jacquelyn, Justin, Victoria, Jeffro, Jamie & Zoe, Jason, Leonard, Bryan, and...Shaz. *fooosh

And a group picture taken by Jason! :D

The party was fun. Just wish there was more ice-cream for the milkshake. Lol.

Much Love, AngelKein. 

Hold On.

But maybe it is.

I've not gone to the other side. :/
I wonder what it's like there.

Cause right now, the side I'm standing on, isn't so bright.

Tomorrow's will be a better day right?
Emo emo emo.


There's always a song to describe how I feel and right now, my song is "Hold On" by Good Charlotte.


I really appreciate people who are positive all the time. I know Ive said I'll try to be positive but unfortunately, I've not done that very much. When the mood swings kicks it, oh yeah, negative thinking swings in too.

 At one point I was so sad and negative all the time, suicide was constantly in my head. I literally wanted to just give up on life, just slit my wrist, drink soap or something. I guess not much people know that cause I appear to be happy often(?). I guess I'm not the only one right? Many people have gone through this. I know, I'm a troubled kid.

 I'm not very good at expressing my feelings with many people and by feelings I mean, cry-like-crazy kind-of-a-feeling. And through those negative times when I wanted to kill myself, I've only turned to one person . He's a great friend and still is to me (whether he knows it or not). I guess he just knows what to say and he's gone through what I've gone through, family wise at least.

 Whether it be parents divorcing or breaking up with your boyfriend or someone very dear to you passing away. I guess everyone has gone through moments like these when it feels like there's a black hole in your life and you feel like there's no reason to live anymore but..
Hold on...if you feel like letting go
Hold on...it gets better than you know

I use to HATE people who tells me "Everything will be okay" when I'm sad. I'll go "What the hell do you know? You dont know what I'm going through, don't give me cliche bullsh*t quotes." But kantoi to me really, everything actually turns out fine and I'll go "Darn. They're right." After all, life is like a roller coaster right?  *there goes another cliche quote Things can't be perfect alll the time, neither can they be bad alll the time. 

 So I hope you'll see things in a better perspective alright? (: 

 Much much love, AngelKein.

ps: did you know that every 18 minutes, someone in the U.S dies by suicide?

We will still be, friends forever.

 Just two years ago, we all didn't know each other. We see each other, we smile and sometimes we say hi, but that was it, we didn't know each other, some, not even names. Although we're from the same church and we sing the same song and we praise the same God, we didn't know each other. Then two years later, we're friends. Some closer to another than others but still, we're friends. We play, we cry, we laugh it out, together. And I think, I hope, we'll be friends forever. (:

And that's all I've got to say is, 

 As we go on, we remember

 All the times we, spent together

 And as our lives change, from whatever

 We will still be, friends forever

                    -Graduation Song, Vitamin C.

 I am amazed at how much things has changed for the last couple of years. The friends I've gained, I love them all (even though sometimes I'm so annoyed with them). Now that most of them have graduated, and are graduating soon, I'm gonna miss them..

These pictures are from Justin's CNY open-house party for his closest friends(?).
It was totally, awesome. There's too many pictures so I've made a collage out of them. (: