Boredom..

Today I just watched t.v.
Did some homework.
Sms.
More t.v.
Slept.More t.v. on the sofa.
Like a couch potato.
=p


My dog enjoys watching t.v on the sofa too..




XD

(p/s:i suck at editing photos. :( actually.i don't know how.)




-angel-

I want....

stuff i can't afford but i want soo badly..

-stabillo(?) colour pen in a pack
-a cute bag
-laptop
-a big mug with a cover on
-munny $$ xD


see that zachy?
go think bout it..
XD


-angel-

Finally...

After service today..felt so refreshed..felt so free..free from sadness..i realized that life is short and we're suppose to live this short life for God and spend eternity in heaven..

Don't let one thing stop you from finishing the race..
"i have fought a good fight,i have finished the race,i have kept my faith..." (2Timothy4:7)



-angel-

Things i wonder

I wonder why..I wonder how..I wonder what...

Why was i put into this world?
This question keeps me wondering...why? yes..yes...to serve GOD...
then why is my life HELL?it doesn't make sense does it?
i don't know..I've no one to talk to..yes..yes..why not turn to GOD you say..well..i think I'm backsliding in believing in GOD..*gosh* you may say but yes,its true.All the thoughts of self-destruct fills my head.

I NEED SOME HOPE.

PRAY FOR ME.

HELP ME.

ANYTHING.

I NEED HELP.



-angel-

friends?family?run away?suicide?

HOLIDAY,today...Here's what happened.I was all happy 'bout watching movies with my friends.I planed.I called.At first,many people wanted to go and then one by one,they bailed out and NO ONE told me they're not going.When i found out i was so filled with ANGER i wanted to kill someone.HOW CAN YOU JUST SAY YOU'RE NOT GOING AFTER ALL I DID?eish...then...i was talking to my friend on the phone and my mom called,i didn't answer..she started telling me wait,she started SHOUTING at me..here is what she said "WHY YOU NEED A PHONE IF YOU'RE NOT GONNA ANSWER IT?THE OLD PHONE AND THE NEW PHONE THE SAME!and etc."..Tell you the truth,i feel like running away from home or DIE.Here's what my parents say to me "YOU'RE NO USE.LAZY.I DON'T KNOW HOW I CAN GET SUCH A DAUGHTER.IF YOU HATE ME SO MUCH,I CAN GIVE YOU AWAY"..yes...that's what they say...imagine the pain I'm having..imagine what I'm going through..i can't wait 'til i can leave my house(it's not a home)..and with all this pain i thought i could talk to my friends or something but oh wait...they bailed out on me..AND I'M LEFT WITH NO ONE...

People always say how the only child can be spoiled.Maybe i am spoiled.I can't wait 'til its time for me to leave my house..To be free.Away from my so called "family".Maybe i should go into rumah destiny.It's a great choice.WHAT'S MY PURPOSE TO BE ON EARTH?to be just another person?

I CAN'T FIGURE OUT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW.

MAYBE THERE'S A DAY WHEN I'LL JUST SELF DESTRUCT.

-ANGEL-