16 September 2014

Companionship

    We're not meant to live life alone. It does not need to be a romantic relationship, but I don't believe people can travel through life without any companionship. Everything is more exciting to do when there's someone to do it with, don't you think? Honestly, even the most mundane of chores are immensely better when done with someone you adore. 


Today's brush pen work is from a part of a conversation between Row and I. We've been apart for weeks and I'm really looking forward to cooking with him. I know- such a silly thing! But cooking with him is so much fun. He's like a friend, but a friend I can cuddle with, and what a nice thing to be with someone you can be friends with. Oh giggles! 

Love, AngelKein

11 September 2014

Little Moments

I'm halfway through my holiday back in Malaysia. I've not really done much, but I intend it that way. I figured that since being back in Melbourne I'm always out and about, catching up with one responsibility to another, that it'll be nice to just do not much for a little bit. My days have been filled with catching up with friends, lazing at home, and playing with my dog. The little things are really quite delightful.

I truly enjoy the company of people, especially in a leisurely environment. When there's little outward surrounding disturbances, there's more opportunities to absorb each other's souls (not in the dementor way) and nourish mine. Memories I most cherish and have most flourished me are the most little, unfestive ones. Ahh, I very much like the simplicities of not doing much and just soaking in the presence of people I adore.


It was such a pleasure to be out with Justine and Juyi who are two of the smartest, most beautiful people I know. We had coffee, cakes, and many conversations. It was so easing to be basked in their presence. I've known them for years and am happy that despite the all the distance and business, we've remained friends.



Love, AngelKein

05 September 2014

Feelings of Being Home; Thankfulness

You may or may not know, but I'm back in Malaysia for a few weeks while I'm on my trimester break. I've been asked by friends in Melbourne on how being home feels like and I've just replied with generic answers like yeah, it's good or yeah, it's alright. It's good being home, I suppose. There is comfort and familiarity and family and friends, which is best, but I'm torn. I'm unsure as to how I feel and it's hard to explain.

It's like this: Although I've only been gone for 8 months, I feel like I've changed quite a lump some and am in a different universe when I'm in Melbourne. Being in Australia I feel that there is a greater opportunity for me to control my future. I am my own person when I'm there. Being here in Malaysia though, and although I know I'm only here for a few weeks, I feel like it's taking a step back, returning to who I was before I fluttered my wings. It's nice to be living under my parents, of course. I enjoy not needing to worry about the basic things like food, and ha, going to the laundromat to do my washing, but with this luxury, I feel a decrease in my adultness(?). To put it simple, being back I just feel dejavu, like I'm still the girl who urged to leave and whose dreams have yet to come true, and this feeling I guess has made me rather glum, which is quite silly because in less than three weeks I will be back in Melbourne and I will hate being an adult again. (Ugh, laundromats.)

And so, in an alternate thinking, with that glum gibber globber, I realized that I have once again fallen back into my cycle of pondering too much and not enjoying or be thankful for the what-is-of-now. Thus here I am again, repeating my efforts to be thankful for matters and thankful for the present and what I have been blessed with currently.

05/09/14. I am thankful for the conversations I have had with the few friends I've caught up with since being back, especially today with JuYi whom as always being deeper than the abyss, I find really so refreshing and enriching to converse with. 


Love, AngelKein

27 August 2014

Worrying



Recently, I've learned to let go on worrying. I've been doing a lot of it recently and it's just far too tiring, mentally and physically. A friend of mine brought to my realization that worrying is basically being anxious for the unknown, an imaginary conclusion, and that situation can always pen out to be completely contrasting to what was thought, which is silly isn't it? To worry about something that's not even reality? It would be like worrying about unicorns (no offense to people who have intense feelings over their actual existence). And I've known this fact all the while but having the words come out from someone else was really a wow-factor because it definitely brought things into perspective. 

You are probably unaware, but I went through so much hardship during the start of my time in Australia. Truly, there was so much tears and intense emotions, but I am okay because God has been with me throughout. To say that I have complete faith in God would be a lie because I didn't/have not given myself up fully to the recognition that God is in control, which He totally has been and it's so foolish of me to let worries bereave me of that fact because look, even throughout all the storms, I came out good and am doing what I love surrounded by incredible individuals.

“If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don’t fuss about what’s on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds." Matthew 6: 25 

All glory to God, really. Everything I have and all the amazing people I know are blessings from this loving, merciful, gracious God who despite all my many flaws and sins (I am so so far from an ideal Christian), cherish me as His child. 

I am so blessed.

Chants everything is going to be alright, everything is will be well, God is with me.

Love, AngelKein

22 August 2014

Freaky



Anna Akana is my favorite youtuber at the moment. She's quite a quirky little creative and I love it. She can be funny and expresses comedy that has the right percentage of funny and not-trying-too-hard, and she's also inspirational and deep, touching souls. Her personality appeals to me and I appreciate the genuine effort she pushes in her videos, not just diving into silly, (and honestly quite) annoying challenges that many youtubers are generating these days. 

The quote above is from her recent video Your Inner Freak. I'm secretly (or not so secretly now) a weirdo and relate to what she said about finding someone's who's compatibly as weird, because I gave up long ago on hiding my awkwardness and that paid up well cause now I'm with someone who parallels with me in my freakiness (honestly, we're so weird). 


Love, AngelKein

19 August 2014

Selflessness


I'm amply blessed to have met so many wonderful people in my time here in Australia. I'm not sure what's in the water, but there is a big willingness in people's heart to help. It's not even only me; you can see it on the streets. People helping old women carry bags, giving a $20 note to a homeless man, opening doors for you. Kindness, I think, is much more present.

Thank you, you, and you, for caring for me.

Love, AngelKein